Saudades
2011/11/15
There's something about nighttime that makes me queasy thinking drinking caffeine all day will make it more easy, reading the horoscope of everyone I know and biding my time while I put on this show, painting my face to look like a mask forgetting,remembering,and forgetting the past, the morning rolls round and it's washed off again revolving forever in that same fucking dizzying spin
well. You told me you loved me and I suppose that it's true but I got so lovesick jealous doubtful miserably down on myself I forgot what to do
Now I see we all have these connections to some eternal realm and we all make decisions we all have seen hell, everyone of you reading this has pondered upon death and the meaning of everything you've heard in your head, i may have the blues more often than most my high points are so magical that my lows are too low
So when Light turns to black in the physical world my insides start churning and burning twisting turning in a seemingly endless swirl, I guess it could be my soul's way of trying to mimic those 'wandering stars' wanting to be like neptune or jupiter but getting caught up in pluto and mars
And I guess that's not so bad when you stop and think about it since we all need to experience sorrow anger and destruction in order to grow
But sometimes its hard to see the cycles of the universe when you're so deep inside, so its good to step back take a breath and just sit for a moment to reflect. And if you get too far removed, sucked into all that aether, it's hard to catch your breath always thinking about the universe worried about time space and death, you should remember not to forget about experiencing life the pain the joy the wonder confusion smiling and strife, it all comes together in a packaged deal and doesn't matter whether or not you believe that it's real, or that all is an illusion except what we think,
life can be enjoyable so try to learn to sing because what we have in common is bigger than you may know, we are all connected to everyone, to everything, so you can stop pretending you're alone,
and besides the point of living can't be only to sit and despair and believe that it's all pointless and separate and temporal lonely misery unfair. no the point of life is living no matter what angle you view it from so stop fearing the darkness instead embrace it and become one, drink life like it's wine, vice versa, and have fun
There's something about nighttime that makes me queasy thinking drinking caffeine all day will make it more easy, reading the horoscope of everyone I know and biding my time while I put on this show, painting my face to look like a mask forgetting,remembering,and forgetting the past, the morning rolls round and it's washed off again revolving forever in that same fucking dizzying spin
well. You told me you loved me and I suppose that it's true but I got so lovesick jealous doubtful miserably down on myself I forgot what to do
Now I see we all have these connections to some eternal realm and we all make decisions we all have seen hell, everyone of you reading this has pondered upon death and the meaning of everything you've heard in your head, i may have the blues more often than most my high points are so magical that my lows are too low
So when Light turns to black in the physical world my insides start churning and burning twisting turning in a seemingly endless swirl, I guess it could be my soul's way of trying to mimic those 'wandering stars' wanting to be like neptune or jupiter but getting caught up in pluto and mars
And I guess that's not so bad when you stop and think about it since we all need to experience sorrow anger and destruction in order to grow
But sometimes its hard to see the cycles of the universe when you're so deep inside, so its good to step back take a breath and just sit for a moment to reflect. And if you get too far removed, sucked into all that aether, it's hard to catch your breath always thinking about the universe worried about time space and death, you should remember not to forget about experiencing life the pain the joy the wonder confusion smiling and strife, it all comes together in a packaged deal and doesn't matter whether or not you believe that it's real, or that all is an illusion except what we think,
life can be enjoyable so try to learn to sing because what we have in common is bigger than you may know, we are all connected to everyone, to everything, so you can stop pretending you're alone,
and besides the point of living can't be only to sit and despair and believe that it's all pointless and separate and temporal lonely misery unfair. no the point of life is living no matter what angle you view it from so stop fearing the darkness instead embrace it and become one, drink life like it's wine, vice versa, and have fun
